Yes I know sometime I blame myself or blame something I can blame to if bad things hit me which leave me an infinite regret. I skip to take lesson and degrade the value of my life. "Good or bad, there's always something you pick as a summary" is I don't consider in advance. Then I learn to be happy and tackle unexpected stuff. I don't wanna overthinking me takes over me from my border of happiness. That's why I am typically less panic if an unfortunate situation passes by because I know there's always something which will make me nodding and figure out why.
Then another thing I feel stronger roots in my life is I feel alone and lonely.
I feel like after college life I have to face it alone. I know my fellows are now with their own schedules and it makes me sick. I feel physical distance is a big problem now. I feel those who can comfort me are out of reach and unavailable. Yes, several of them are still asking me going out and I am thanking God for that yet perhaps I need an extra dose. I feel lonely at its most. I feel lonely and I have no idea why it appears suddenly. Yes, lonely doesn't have to. It can be there knocking you out, kick you down, and make you feel unwanted. But again, I stay looking a half full instead of a hall empty. I realize God is always there for me and I distract myself by social media and sleeping. By now, I use to tackle loneliness and make it befriended.
And here I am.
Writing as my job hasn't been busy yet.
I manage several causal things.
And hope by coming back to this will be able to distract myself.
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