Distracting

Long time no see.

It has been really long time I haven't updated this blog.

First of all, I had deleted my personal blog to make sure I have moved on with what the posts had already written. I am not eager to rewind what had been there in my past, especially those ended-up-sad feelings. I already learned that to let it go, you have to accept what has been there. More you deny, more deeper the memory will absorbed which eventually hallucinates you impossible to move on with your life. Whatever it is: life, love, or circle of friendship, once you feel it has to be left in your past, you have to accept that sorrow then release it gradually out of your mind.
Yes I know sometime I blame myself or blame something I can blame to if bad things hit me which leave me an infinite regret. I skip to take lesson and degrade the value of my life. "Good or bad, there's always something you pick as a summary" is I don't consider in advance. Then I learn to be happy and tackle unexpected stuff. I don't wanna overthinking me takes over me from my border of happiness. That's why I am typically less panic if an unfortunate situation passes by because I know there's always something which will make me nodding and figure out why.

Then another thing I feel stronger roots in my life is I feel alone and lonely.
I feel like after college life I have to face it alone. I know my fellows are now with their own schedules and it makes me sick. I feel physical distance is a big problem now. I feel those who can comfort me are out of reach and unavailable. Yes, several of them are still asking me going out and I am thanking God for that yet perhaps I need an extra dose. I feel lonely at its most. I feel lonely and I have no idea why it appears suddenly. Yes, lonely doesn't have to. It can be there knocking you out, kick you down, and make you feel unwanted. But again, I stay looking a half full instead of a hall empty. I realize God is always there for me and I distract myself by social media and sleeping. By now, I use to tackle loneliness and make it befriended.

And here I am.
Writing as my job hasn't been busy yet.
I manage several causal things.
And hope by coming back to this will be able to distract myself.